# can't sleep aching and sweating i feel like i've got a cold got up and dutifully marched the corridors of my lonely lab complex until i found a sentient dispensing machine who thankfully auto-dispensed a 'purple cold drink' - although generally it's a good health idea to stay away from anything containing aspartamine as artificial industrial corporate shit like that gives lab arts cancer at fifty paces **06:34sbt** > walk alone committing no harm with few wishes like the elephant in the forest > the dhammapada (collection of buddhist sayings) woke up dead on my feet and in my idiot skull - almost puking from the bone-sucking aetheric lovecraftian cold in my miserable crypt-cube am now sitting here alone in-lab with a hot cup of fresh english breakfast some sports baggies a tshirt a jumper two fleeces a coat and a scarf with the heater on full - my neck and arm on slow burn pain-fire naturally a little natural (as in taoist non-dual bodymind) tai chi chuan-fa / eight pieces of brocade chi gung helped immensely maybe not just due to the nature of the nature of the specific movements themselves but that *movement per-se is living* again and again one has to literally get this through one's lead-dull idiot space-monkey skull - when the bodymind process is static there is the false yin-yang split; only in *moving union* does the tao 'the way' - *actual living* - occur; to move is life and stasis is not; if you're not immediately dead than one is undead - dead while alive merely existing without living rsi is bad again - got to get up again from this horrible chair of static undeath and move - that is *live* - live darnit reseachers live i tell thee 07:11sbt - getting sleepy again might try again to catch some sleep bees with my mind net 07:35sbt - the opening of series one episode 5 basically informs one this like so many similar productions - is just another ideological expression of reactionary conservatism; that 'new (/capitalist?)' values are evil and the old 'honourably destructive' samurai value system with ir cool decap skillz and martial style poses that bring all the fembois to the yard are good and need preserving / returning to it's the exact same process just with guns vs swords - it's obviously not 'the way of the samurai' which needs reviving with an electric jolt of netflix money and high production values it's japanese-style humanism and pervasive buddhistic kindness - an unextinguishable lamp an eternally living diamond thunderbolt flash of summer lightning the true mystic sword of no-thickness only slices through the false zero-width gap between life and death; timeless grand ultimate zen beyond is revealed 18:19sbt - am waiting for the shopping it's fast getting cold my partner in rhyme is arriving back from visiting ir ill and slowly dying father; i'm trying o decide how best to draw venn diagrams clearly illustrating and explaining my current ongoing existential situation **current consumer wishlist** **+** tiny bottle of orange oil **+** new large capacity usb memory stick **+** water distiller **+** vertical mouse **+** house plants to lively up this place up // republic of bob